world at large

I have truly missed the boat. We knew we had the good things but they never seem to last, oh please just last. --Modest Mouse

There are just moments in life when running away is the only option left. Knowing when to back out of a situation is not always a cowardice deed.

Such as today, i have been arguing with myself whether to go to school today, i am here and i am sitting in my mediocre desk that could care less whose weight it held and sitting next to these people that all have no faces and if they do its a blur as well as a mumble of nonsense that comes out of their blobs of faces.

I am going to leave and take a break away from this. I am tired of pretending it is ok. It isnt. I will deal with this tomorrow but today it is a time not for owning up to life but for breaking away from it, if just for a few hours.

I come here to learn but i only have emotions getting in the way. College is going to be worse than this because your not expected to talk to people or make any lasting friends...but maybe this will be to my advantage. As long as it is not the expectation it is alway easier to deal with.

i shall depart for now.