The Insightment

On this elegant All Hallow's Eve night you might think to find a teenager of the age of 16 to be gallavanting throughout the neighborhoods vandalizing houses, getting free candy, partying with a few friends or a large group of strangers. Something that signifies a social lifestyle outside of one from school.



I am an exception to this case. To begin my extravagant night, i headed off to the gym with my father. After that we went out to look around a giant hole with wooden frames along the side of it; our future basement. Surveying the scene for moments, then returned to our humble abode. I immediately take for the nearest piece of furniture, the couch, and begin my relaxation of reading, writing, and listening to some soft calming music. Namely, lovedrug and Jack Johnson.

This is my evening that is supposed to be exciting and filled with entertaining adventures. This is what i choose to do with my time.



The reason why i dont frollick with my other peers is mainly because 1: No one invited me to accompany them on any journeys and 2: I am getting to the age that i should pretend to be an adult. This doesnt stop all of my friends but it does encourage them to not waste what little is left of their youth.
Isnt that what we're all trying to do? Just save one more moment for something unexpected to brag about later to anyone that will listen. To save up in our memory and reminisce about later just to bring a smile back to our faces. At some points this is all we can cling onto to not completely lose our minds about the often insane world we live in today.

Think about it. This is the same world we have lived in all of our lives, yet our perception of it changes constantly, making it seem different throughout their lives. As children the essence of innocence was still fresh from birth and the world is so large and vaste, but this did not daunt us one bit. We faced what the world offered us without question. We hadnt ever known any different. Not knowing if we were being jipped from anything, we took what we had and do you know what we did with it? what every child does with what they have? They make the best of it. They love life! they play and enjoy and cry out with pleasure at how simple everything is to them.
Adults.....
What do we do the moment we recieve anything controversial to what we've known or even slightly difficult, we complain. State our prerogative, as if the world need to obey such a silly notion, and grumble thru the whole ordeal.

People!
stop it!!
I still have yet to find anything that needs complaining about. Sure some things may seem unfair to you but think about it thru other people's eyes. What may seem unfair to you may seem perfectly legitimate to others. Nobody is going to change the world to please you. This is a romantic fantasy that people have fallen into and have now become slaves to.

The Inferno is a book that i had the opportunity to glance thru and it shouts out a powerful message to people about how selfish they can be. the best kind of critisism is the one that makes you seem like the biggest fool.
It tells you what you need most work on. Maybe i speak from layman terms, because the Lord has been great to me and not given me such a life as one that is full of heartache and trials. But i have still recieved some difficult times the same as many people. I have made some decisions that have kept me out of trouble thus far and some that have driven me right into the collision of hard times. But once i got some insight into my situations and taken a step back to review my life, i realized that i had everything in the world to be thankful for.

So even though i have grown up and it is hard to enjoy life as we once did in a time so long and fleeting ago, i still cling onto that innocence. I may not be out with friends and having a party time with them, but honestly i dont think i want to. I am happy with sitting alone in my house just as well. Some people may find this a pitiful state and that i am a pitiful person, but they may think what they will. It shall never take my joy away.

Also, i think if i hung out with the people here i would end up liking them all a bit less by the end of it. I am in no man's land and i am just trying to find my way and my place. If i never do, so be it, i shall have a jolly good time making my way anyhow.

happy halloween to all. and to all a good night. =]